The years passed by faster than I ever thought they would, rushing by in a indistinct blur. I have memories, moments that I've tried to keep somewhere in the mess of myself, but they seem to be slipping away more quickly than ever before. It's as if my mind has encountered so much in the past year that there's just no space left and the memories of my childhood have been removed and stored somewhere I'll never be able to find them. I'm not sure if I mind or not.
Blood soaked my vision, leaking into my tear ducts and drowning my lungs. I could barely choke back the sobs, barely hold in the breaths that would save my life. Stay, please stay. I don't know whether I shouted it or it was only a fleeting thought. Either way you turned as if you'd never known me. I could see the redness of your neck before you pulled your coat collar around it, tucking your feathered blonde hair into it. Is this what you wanted all along? The satisfaction of knowing you were the one to tear my heart open and make me bleed, knowing that you were the one who broke me? I could feel it then, the darkness creeping into my mind, blocking out the cold evening. I grew warm as if you'd come back and wrapped me in the embrace I'd always loved. Instead it seemed death had finally come for me. He looked an awful lot like you. Feathered blonde hair, startling eyes and that smile, the smile that had captured my doomed heart from the beginning. He embraced me then, just as you had done and for a fleeting moment I forgot. Forgot that you had torn me away, pushed me to the ground and pressed the bullets into my heart. Forgot that you had killed me. In that fleeting moment he was you, in every delicate aspect, and I loved him as I had you.
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