So Close to Breaking

There is an irrational fear within
    me. Hidden behind
every lie that has ever been
               told, every
truth that has ever been denied.
       And it seems that
no matter how much I try and fix
          this, it won't change.
It feels like an end that was never
   ment to happen. A moment
that should never have been present,
          at least not now.
Not when everything is already so close
                                                            to breaking.

Should I run?

Lost, wandering and thinking
    that every
              little thing is going
 wrong. If only you
       could tell me that its
all okay, that this terrible dread
   is only just my imagination.
 The problem is
              that I just can't
    shake the feeling. I just
 can't disregaurd the
       desire to run for my
                   life.